Remember the movie line from "You've Got Mail" where she says "Do you ever feel like you've become the worst version of yourself?" Well, friends, in the past few years there have been many times where I think that I could've answered "Yes" to that statement. It wasn't like I had turned into someone HORRIBLE or really that anyone outside of my closest circle would know it, but I felt like I had lost a part of me that made me the best version of myself. After countless talks with girlfriends and a few quiet moments with God I know that what I had "lost" was an intimate relationship with Christ.
I committed my life to Christ when I was 12 and managed to passionately follow him throughout my highschool and college years. Side note to my "younger" friends... It IS possible to follow Christ in the midst of highschool and college...hmmm...maybe more on that another day. Anyhow, it was later... sometime after our oldest was born that I just slowly drifted away. There was some hurt in my life, I was physically drained, I was emotionally worn out, the bank account was on E, and before I knew it the JOY that used to be my defining character trait was no where to be found. At least not for an extended period of time. A year or so later, I realized what was happening and wanted "the old me" back. About once a week, (usually on Monday) I would tell my husband "It's a new me." The reality was that this "new me" usually only last a day or so and then I would start again the next Monday. It started to become a joke, and then it became...well, annoying. I was trying to just muster up some willpower out of nowhere and it usually failed.
However, through CHRIST all things are possible and in the last few years I have had many lasting victories. I have drawn near to God and have experienced his comfort, joy, provision in ways that bring tears to my eyes to this day. Having said that, there are still some areas of my life that I really want to focus on. So, I titled this blog "Happy New You" in declaration of God continually changing me into a better version of myself. A New Me. I'm choosing to walk out (and now, technically in front of the world~even though it will most likely just be my mom who reads this... Hi mom!) His promise in 2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore, if anyone is in Crist, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come."
